For anyone who makes art they want to show to the world, I needed to hear this podcast episode about “emerging” and what that means or looks like. The answer is that no one really knows/ it’s up to you to define for yourself! How freeing<3
Trade Secret Podcast - Episode with Roberto Lugo and Julia Galloway about "emerging"
Coining the term if not already coined: The state of being a sponge: an absorber, noticer, learner by observation and osmosis; a squeezer or secreter of what has been taken in, rinsed and slightly processed.
I am less of a doer in the moment, I’m a doer after careful consideration. In the moment, I’m a sponge, an absorber. All I can do is watch the movie unfold and take in/process the millions of details involved with any present situation. I will act later once I’ve thoroughly processed, thought it through, understand where I’m coming from and where I’m going.
First, there’s the :| face
Then, the blame game: Blaming myself
Blaming others
Remembering the wins
Acknowledging the inevitability of unintended consequences when making a change to the loading/firing
Remembering past loses
Recounting how well prepared I was
Questioning myself (if in fact I was as prepared as I thought)
Reminding myself of patience
Recognizing how far my craftsmanship has come
Beating myself up for my loading choices
Reinforcing my loading choices
Questioning everything: why do I do this?
Problem solving for next time
Looking beyond myself: This work exists in the world now (due to the teamwork of every person in this firing)
Metaphors: This is a relationship
Gratitude: This process is massively humbling
Regret and resentment
Gratitude again
Vulnerability to hope: Planning/starting new work