First, there’s the :| face
Then, the blame game: Blaming myself
Blaming others
Remembering the wins
Acknowledging the inevitability of unintended consequences when making a change to the loading/firing
Remembering past loses
Recounting how well prepared I was
Questioning myself (if in fact I was as prepared as I thought)
Reminding myself of patience
Recognizing how far my craftsmanship has come
Beating myself up for my loading choices
Reinforcing my loading choices
Questioning everything: why do I do this?
Problem solving for next time
Looking beyond myself: This work exists in the world now (due to the teamwork of every person in this firing)
Metaphors: This is a relationship
Gratitude: This process is massively humbling
Regret and resentment
Gratitude again
Vulnerability to hope: Planning/starting new work
Functional + Sculptural Ceramics by Bianca Loscocco